Gratefulness

At Bible Study tonight with my grandma -- she talked to me about thankfulness and gratefulness. I think I really needed this lesson tonight. Lately I have been so stressed and my emotions have been all over the map. I actually CRIED yesterday because I bought a rug that didn't fit in with my home the way I thought it would.

Sometimes I really need to take a step back and realize all I have to be grateful for. I need to stop complaining and be so thankful -- truly, wonderfully thankful for all I have been given and just the fact that I'm here on this Earth.

Tonight when my husband picked me up after Bible Study -- he stopped at the store to pick up a gallon of milk for himself. I casually mentioned if they had a Reesee Peanut Butter Easter Egg, I'd love one (I'm dieting and was NEEDING that chocolate, lol). I saw my adorable, sweet hubby check out with his milk and then seeing a stand of those chocolates I'd ask for -- run over there and grab me one. Now I realize this is a small gesture but it's something I take for granted so often! I also take for granted the fact that he will ALWAYS turn on the car seat warmer for me before I get into the car or how many times a day he says he loves me.

I take for granted the roof over my head that I am so blessed with. Not only do I have a roof over my head, but it's our first home that we own. I cry over a rug that doesn't fit with my home, but forget to appreciate that I HAVE a home to decorate and be creative in. I have a safe home with a loving husband. I have 4 adorable dogs that I just love and that make me smile daily. I have SO many blessings that when I sit down to think, they so outweigh any of the small annoyances in life.

I complain and cry about my health issues, but I forget to give THANKS that I have a husband who has a job that provides us with health insurance so that I am able to get care affordably. I forget to be thankful that even through any health situation, I am still given the chance to be on this earth whether I be sick or healthy. I can CHOOSE to be grateful, thankful and at peace.

I am not the most religious person and I am learning daily about God. I am trying to reach out and further an understanding I don't think I've ever had. But right now, I am so thankful for my ordinary life with all of it's somewhat ordinary daily problems and annoyances. I am just so thankful and my heart feels so open and whole as I'm typing this.

And last but definitely not least, I'm grateful to my wonderful Grandma for sharing her knowledge of the Lord with me and opening her arms wide to help me. I am also thankful that the Lord shows me mercy. Even in all my non understanding, in all of my imperfections -- I am so thankful that I'm still loved.